MONDAYYYYYYY

Yikes! Already the end of February :( This month has taken it's toll on me (it's also taken two wisdom teeth). I'm excited for March.

date: Monday, February 27th. Definitely feels like it should be March already LOL
location: DESK!
weather: Sunny but cold. I thoroughly enjoyed my walk this morning though.
reading: The Pursuit of God AW Tozer - it's amazing
eating: nothing - although I had some toast with nutella for brekkie :)
drinking: COFFEEEEEEE (it's Monday, don't judge me.)
enjoying: This ZEALOUS song I'm listening to! I love Zealous - and YES I may be a little biased since they are friends of mine, but I still think their music is AMAZING - Look them up if you haven't already!
thinking: about writing another post
wondering: If I can make it to Saturday - I'm doing some Spring shopping with the Madre, and i'm so excited to spend some time with her
needing: Most likely some water since I've been dehydrating myself with coffee all morning.

Happy Monday!

Friday's Currents! :)

date: Friday, February 3rd. Can you believe it's February already?!
location: front desk
weather: Sunny! Looks like Springtime out there.
reading: Hood by Stephen Lawhead!
eating: just finished a sour Cutie
drinking: watahhhhh (water with a British accent)
enjoying: Instagram! I've become slightly obsessed I think.
thinking: sleeping.
wondering: If I'll be feeling well enough tomorrow to go out with my mom
needing: To go home! My bed is calling.

Happy Friday :)

Currents.

I've got to start getting on here more regularly! Not writing is making my writing skills go down the tubes! SO here are my currents for the day :)

date: Tuesday, January 31st
location: my office cubicle
weather: Dreary... foggy and cold!
reading: Hood by Stephen Lawhead!
eating: a banana
drinking: cinnamon dolce latte :)
enjoying: the quiet!
thinking: about the rest of the week... planning.
wondering: if I can manage to make dinner, hit the gym, and get to bed at a resonable hour tonight
needing: to get some water! This latte is dehydrating me!

Oh, To Be Convicted...

It's been a long time since I read the word of God and had a true sense of conviction from it. I think it's just where I've been spiritually in the past year that hindered me from really listening to God, especially through His word, which is where He speaks the most. But, this morning, I was reading Ephesians 5 before work, and the language that Paul uses in this passage just got to me. Sin is big! I forget sometimes how much our sin DOES separate us from God. This passage really snapped me back to reality and back to the Gospel. Thank God for conviction, and thank God for forgiveness.

Losing My Muchness.

I know it's been quite a long time since I blogged, and I said I wouldn't do that anymore. This last month has been literally a nightmare and there have been so many times I wanted to write, but all I could do was cry. This is my first attempt at writing since things have fallen apart (or started falling together, however you look at it).

Lost the bf this month. He turned out to be not who I thought he was. Apparently spending over a year with someone does not guarantee that you know them, because things I didn't know someone could say were definitely said to me. I don't know that I've ever been hurt this badly. I know it will get better, because God restores, and that's the only thing that gets me up in the morning.

I'm also losing my apartment. My small salary and increased cost of living have finally buckled and I'm moving back in with my mother. In the same month that I will celebrate (I use the term celebrate loosely) my *26th* birthday. I have not lived at home in 7 years. But you know, I know that God will ultimately make this possible too. I've been learning many lessons in humility.

My boss decided to make this the month that she sabotaged my chances of a promotion in this agency. That was fun. I'm learning not to take everyone at their word, and I'm not sure if that's a good thing to learn or something that jaded people say.

AND I still don't have a church home, which does actually weigh very heavily on my spirits. I know that doesn't seem like a big deal, but I've been without one since... July? I know that God will lead me to the right one, but in the meantime, learning to trust him and be content with where I am (or where I'm not) is proving to be a big struggle.

I know this sounds like complaining. But the purpose of writing this is to say that because of the events that have happened in the last month, I feel like I may have lost some of my muchness. If this reference is lost on you, it's from the new version of Alice in Wonderland, when the Mad Hatter (Johnny Depp) says to Alice that's she's the same Alice but she's lost her Muchness. When I saw that I thought immediately, that's how I feel. I know that God is going to get me through all things, and I try to celebrate the small victories in the day like, hey I got out of bed, or wow, I didn't cry at all at work today, but in the moment, I feel like I'm not all here. I feel like perhaps God is humbling me? Working on my pride? Like when I thought I had things figured out He's saying "No, *I* have it figured out." So I will take today in stride, and celebrate today's small victories (like finally writing).

My First Home DIY Project!

Ok, it's not that exciting, but I saw this idea on Pintrest about putting cork board on the inside of kitchen cabinets to pin up lists and recipes, and I thought, I could do that! So I did! Here's my work!



First, these were my supplies (corkboard, scissors, and a pen):




















So I measured about an inch and a half strip down one side and then cut it and this is what I came up with:

















I did this with two pieces of corkboard and then used the adhesive that came in the pack to put it up in the cabinet (I also added some flare with push pins :) ok, I'm not that creative!):






























Ta Da! I felt quite accomplished when it was done. Now to find some recipes to pin up there...

Weddings!!!

Yesterday was my friend Danielle's wedding. It was absolutely beautiful and I was so happy I could be there for her big day! It was the first time I've stayed for a whole reception and the first time in years where I literally danced for a consecutive two hours (I didn't feel bad for skipping the gym to go to the wedding!). That said, it was a lovely day (even though the bf couldn't come :( missed him a lot). Here are some pictures to prove how lovely it was :)

Leaving for the ceremony

Above: Danielle and I at the ceremony

Below: Jeshon and I at the reception

What's a reception without a few good buddy shots??







LaWanda and Gina looking lovely!

Group shot of us at the reception

Danielle and I (again at the ceremony)

Such a nice day :) (and my first set of pictures on my blog! woo hoo!)